I was about to kill myself and I thought I should do something for myself, something I can do to make myself happy, something that won’t be based in someone else’s approval, but solely in my own approval of my actions. So I realized I wanted to make comics.
I want to make movies, write novels, short stories, essays, more. I want to create a new art form. And I have considered it, tried it, and I am working on it all.
The same way I feel about the casual racism and hypocrisy of anyone else; it’s a case-by-case thing. I am not interested in labeling someone as a “backwards person”, because I don’t believe labels help.
If I see a problem, I deal with it on a case-by-case basis. I believe that helps. And I believe keeping an open mind helps. When someone acts racist or hypocritical, I find that it’s usually because of a wound they have and often don’t connect it with their attitudes and behavior. So, if the behavior itself is stopped and the moment feels right for it, I then ask questions and I listen. Things develop from there.
Also, as written previously, I have no interest in giving my time and energy to guilt and shame.
None. Be it Jean-Claude van Damme movies, listening to Backstreet Boys when I was eleven, that ridiculous Oedipal poem my kindergarten teacher taught me or anything else: I have no time and energy for guilt and shame.
What a great question! Right now my answer is Brian Eno, Venetian Snares and Nas. Or Julianna Barwick, Trish Keenan and Howard Shore. Or Avey Tare, Merzbow and Trent Reznor. Or Shigeto, Philip Glass and Miles Davis. Or Nick Cave and Autechre (two people, one band). Plenty more.
What defines relevancy first is the creator. Is it relevant to me, is it alive in me, do I feel a deep need to write it out? Then it’s relevant and that’s it.
I love New York dearly. I wish I could move it wherever I go, just so it can always be near. I love LA, too, because it’s a perfect counterbalance to NY spatially, and not just. I love Prague, although that’s mostly memories, I suspect: so nostalgia and old buildings. I love Ostrava, in a Baudelarian sense of loving a bloated corpse surrounded by heavy machinery and deep woods. I love London and the blood underneath its pavements. There are so many. I don’t want to play favorites. So many to discover. Right now it’s NY I think of the most.
That said, there is a thing Wittgenstein said, which I discovered thanks to one of the tumblrs I read the most:
Wittgenstein: Twenty years ago I would have regarded Newman’s action as incomprehensible, perhaps even insincere. But no more…
Somebody: But what changed in you that you no longer think so?
W.: I came gradually to see that life is not what it seems.
[very long silence]
W.: It’s like this: In the city, streets are nicely laid out. And you drive on the right and you have traffic lights, and so on. There are rules. When you leave the city, there are still roads, but no traffic lights. And when you get far off, there are no roads, no lights, no rules, nothing to guide you. It’s all woods. And when you return to the city you may feel that the rules are wrong, that there should be no rules.
S.: I still don’t understand.
W.: It comes to something like this—If you have a light, I say: Follow it. It may be right. Certainly life in the city won’t do.
As answered below. I said everything on the issue I currently want to say in my original statement. This is not me wanting to avoid telling what happened — it’s simply that I want certain conversations to happen first, and I am patient.
Thank you for the kind words on Wild Children! As for what I need — although you probably didn’t mean it this way — I am the only person that knows what I need, not you. Riley & I want to work together again, and I believe it will happen.
I am currently dealing with this very question. Some Scandinavian countries, for one, are looking quite exciting, as I like their ethics, government systems…and I want to pay taxes in a country that puts most — if not all — of my money into things I wholeheartedly support. Other currently considered long-term prospects include some (mostly) South American countries.
Thank you very much! I am glad the comic is helping.
Here are some proper astral hugs. And a cat.
I can. However, I currently do not want to. There are still some conversations left to be had, and I am interested in them happening first. I don’t like to to air things out publicly unless I first make all steps towards changing the situation directly. As far as I am concerned, it feels professional — and just ethically right — to do it this way.
Aw, thank you very much!